Wednesday, October 3, 2012

A bit of self wallowing

I am not going to say that I have been on track lately.

I havent.

I have fallen into a self pity pit and I am having trouble getting out.

During my P90X recovery week, I really didnt keep on the program like I should have. It was a really busy week and I just didnt make time for exercise like I should have.

And this week?

Nope. Not so much.

My time has been consumed with house hunting. Looking at homes, locations, schools. It is exhausting.

Part of me has developed an "f-it" attitude.

Is it really worth counting every calorie?

Depriving myself?

Then I think...

Really, my body doesnt need or want that crap food.

But I am having a hard time crawling out of the cavern.

Even seeing my before picture doesnt help like it used to.

Dont get me wrong...

I wont go back there.

But I am just tired. And frustrated. And exhausted. And frankly I am tired of fighting my way thru life.

It seems like every time we as a family recover, something knocks us back down. It is very exhausting. And really I am not a pity party person.

But a gal can only take so much.

So I need to rekick my butt back into gear.

I NEED to believe that everything will work itself out and that everything happens for a reason.

I wont be at the gym until Friday night for zumba, so I am going to have to take the bull by the horns and work out at home.

Sorry for the downer of a blog post, but that is where I have been the past few days...down in the dumps.

No more though. I will work through it.

Tonight will be fun.

UFO night because last weeks was delayed due to illness.

The plan is to have a glass of wine and then keep myself busy with my craft so I dont snack. Snacking at night has been really bad since I have been surfing the web for homes A LOT.

But I am hoping that I can get the final coats of paint on these chairs today so I can attach the seats tomorrow and get rid of these awful folding chairs. I will be sure to take a picture once they are done.

Ok all. Have a great Wednesday!

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1 comment:

  1. I can't imagine the stress you must be under. It would send me straight to the snack cabinet, for sure. I hope things start falling into place for you so you'll be able to take a deep breath and relax for a moment.